“New Resolution” by Heartless Bastards


“My new resolution is to be someone who doesn’t care what anyone thinks of me, ‘cause I don’t even like myself half the time, and what’s the use in worrying what’s on other people’s minds.”

When I was grad school in Cincinnati, Erika Wennerstrom was a bartender at Arlin’s, where my friends and I always drank too much beer and dreamed of becoming writers. While we were still talking about how to become writers, she was starting a band called Heartless Bastards, getting compared to Robert Plant, and receiving rave write-ups in Spin Magazine (proudly displayed by her coworkers on the wall behind the bar).

I saw her play this song a few times in Cincinnati, then she moved to Austin, Texas around the time I moved to South Bend, Indiana to become a professor in 2006. I read an interview with her in the New York Times, and all I remember is that she said she cries a lot. I cry a lot too. (“Sadness makes me drown and I really want to live.”)

This song is an anthem that should be everyone’s song of the week every week, but it’s hard to find a good video online because the Heartless Bastards have changed personnel and gotten slicker, and they don’t play this song anymore. I like their newer stuff, but I am nostalgic for this moment of live music from a decade ago.

-Kelcey Parker Ervick

Version 3Kelcey Parker Ervick is the author of The Bitter Life of Božena Němcová (Rose Metal Press), a hybrid work of biography, memoir, and visual art. Her previous books include Liliane’s Balcony: A Novella of Fallingwater (Rose Metal Press) and For Sale By Owner (Kore Press). A recipient of grants from the Indiana Arts Commission and the Sustainable Arts Foundation, she teaches at Indiana University South Bend.

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